| | Current Music: | Bon Jovi | | Time: | 06:34 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/flowers/happy.gif) calm |
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| i got the job at pier 1 kids :):):):):):)
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i never have time to write in this thing anymore... | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment   |
| | Time: | 05:02 pm | | Current Mood: | calm |
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| emma put in her two weeks notice and today was her last day. amy goes off to college tomorrow, and my mom's all upset that everyone's leaving. she thinks she's never going to see emma again cause she doesnt work for them anymore, she wouldnt stop crying i feel so bad. it is kind of upsetting, im waiting for it to sink in that its going to be like im an only child. i told my parents not to spoil me and my dad said "fat chance" which lightened up the depressing moment... a little.
em's selling her car because she has a job in philly now so she wont need to drive to work she can just walk. which means she wont be coming to see us but she says i can stop by her place whenever i want. now that her and jeff have moved in together i feel like i cant really do that. she has a new life separate from ours and i would feel as if i was encroaching on it.
its going to be just me and my mom a lot since my dad travels all the time. my parents have hired a new employee to replace emma and he starts on monday but he'll be traveling with my dad 9 times out of 10 so he wont be in the office a lot. his name is mark, i havent met him yet but from what i've heard he seems like a really nice guy.
school starts sooo soon. im trying to just suck it up and get through the year instead of dreading it for the next two days. i havent done my summer reading yet... great start huh? | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 07:14 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/flowers/excited.gif) excited |
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| me and my dad are going fishing on saturday:)
i'm so excited.
we're going to get cute little fishing licenses tomorrow.
i love spending time with my dad...
lolzzzz i cant waiiittt!!! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 06:45 pm | | Current Mood: | content |
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| today was a nice:)
i slept in until 2 at amanda's.we ate eggs for breakfast and then i came home.i hung out at my house for a while, then my aunt who's visiting from england for 2 weeks took me and my mom to chili's for dinner.we had a good time talking and catching up.seeing my relatives is such a treat since it happens so rarely.tonight there's an ice hockey game in newark so me and amanda are going, probably kait too.i am simply content with how things are going right now... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| when you dont say anything, that just makes it worse.
i wish you would just get mad and yell at me like you used to.
it pissed me off and made me feel bad, but it wasnt a lingering wonder afterwards.
i was thinking about it today.
and instead of being nervous or excited or happy about going back to school.
im absolutely terrified.
and now, i cant stop thinking about it.
i came home tonight and went to bed like usual but i couldnt sleep.
so instead im writing this.
seems like a good way to get what im thinking out, so maybe i can sleep.
i've been getting a lot of suprises lately.
i talked to one of my guy friends that i dont usually talk to a lot and i ended up thinking he was an alright guy and i'd like to talk to him more.
it felt good to be completely honest and not tell trivial little lies to make people happy.
then he said stuff about me behind my back.
haha i dont even know why i thought that i could believe he was sincerely a nice guy, thats sad.
and now he's talking to me online, joking around about things like nothing happened, and im sitting here playing along like he didnt say ridiculously horrible things about me, why am i being nice to him... ass.
i dont think anyone reads this anymore and if they do, they dont comment.
i wouldnt be writing this if i thought people were going to take the time to read it.
i dont like being open with people.
who knows... they might turn around and talk shit less than 24 hours later.
i miss being friends with matt.
he was a nice guy. sincere. really. i could tell him everything.
i did.
if you read this matt, love you:)
and im sorry for all the fucked up shit i've done throughout the time i've known you.
i meant to return that apology a while ago.
seems like we're too busy for each other now. sorry.
i lay awake in bed last night and made a list in my head of all the things im scared of.
it was long.
the fact that it was so long was one of the things on the list.
i could've kept going but i thought it wasnt normal to think like that.
so i stopped.
that made me feel a little better.
i think i'll try out the sleeping thing again.
night. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| what the world needs now
is love, sweet love
it's the only thing
that there's just too little of | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | so me and kaitlin went to the beach this weekend. it wasnt as eventful as last time, there were no car accidents, and we didnt get to go to bob evans for breakfast. we left on Friday night and had karioke all the way there. we arrived around 10 i think, we figured out how to turn on the water, hot and cold this time :) we're smart. the next day i was awakened from the aroma of weed floating into my room and go outside to find that kaitlin has started without me... loser. so we smoke up, then decide that since its not too sunny we'll go shopping at the outlets. so i bought kaitlin a few things because she didnt really have any money and when we left the first store the sun was out, so we went back to the house and went swimming in the pool. it was very nice. it was around this time that we met cheeto. she was a little kitten that we found drinking out of a disgusting dirty puddle. she was soo tiny and all her bones we popping out so we tried to feed her cheetos, hence the name cheeto, and we all became good friends. shortly after we went home again and decided to leave the beach early because the radio said it was going to rain today. the end. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | damien rice | | Time: | 11:59 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/flowers/restless.gif) energetic |
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| [1] - Who was the last person you yelled at?: matthew starling.
[2] - Who was the last person you kissed?: i'd rather not say.
[3] - What was the last memorable book you read?: brave new world, but its only memorable because it was so horrible.
[4] - When did you last dance?: prom.
[5] - What's the last thing you want to hear from your parents? "you're curfew is going back to 12."
[6] - When did you last go for a walk in the park?: hmm, me and jess went to a park not too long ago.
[7] - When did you last do your ironing?: a while ago.
[8] - When was the last time you smiled all day?: i dont know.
[9] - What color socks do you normally wear?: white or white with blue toes and heels.
[10] - Have you ever attended a private school?: nope.
[11] - Do you like stuffed animals?: if you dont like stuffed animals you're probably a grouch.
[12] - Have you ever smashed pumpkins?: cant say that i have.
[13] - Do you read labels when shopping for food?: what like nutrition or price. no and yes.
[14] - Can you quote Shakespeare?: 3 words: Mrs. Walker's class.
[15] - Do you like playing baseball?: yesss.
[16] - Are you a neat freak?: nope.
[17] - What is the worst injury you have ever given someone?: i dont know.
[18] - Do you ever eat lemons plain?: ew amanda does that.
[19] - Have you ever fired a gun? a paintball gun! it was fun:)
[20] - Do you own any knee-high boots?: dear god no.
[21] - Are you attached to extreme people?: i dont entirely understand that one.
[22] - Do you like swimming in lakes?: yesss.
[23] - Have you ever streaked at a football game or any other public event?: nope.
[24] - What is you favorite gemstone?: never thought about it.
[25] - Have you gone on many blind dates?: nope.
[26] - Has someone done something extra nice for you?: yes.
[27] - Did you have a crush on any of your teachers?: yeah.
[28] - Have you ever been lost in a bad part of a city?: not that i can remember, and i think thats something i would remember.
[29] - Would you rather have a mint or fruit flavored gum?: definetely mint.
[30] - Do you have road rage?: no.
[31] - Have you ever eaten grass?: probably when i was little.
[32] - Do you ever eat food right out of cans or jars?: its better that way.
[33] - Has your mind ever gone blank?: yeah, thats so frustrating.
[34] - Have you ever met anyone interesting at the laundry mat?: nope.
[35] - Do you have recurring dreams?: im sure i have at some point in time.
[36] - Are you kind?: i try.
[37] - Would you give a needy person the shirt off your back?: yeah.
[38] - Do you have any beanie babies?: oh yes, i was an avid collector.
[39] - Would you rather be hot or cold?: cold.
[40] - Is the glass half full, or half empty?: depends on the situation.
[41] - Do you exercise or work regularly?: hahahaha.
[42] - Could you kill if your life was threatened?: i'd need to be in the situation to determine something like that. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Coldplay. | | Subject: | summer lovin' | | Time: | 06:03 pm | | Current Mood: | cheerful |
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| its ssoooo hotttttt!!! i wish i had central ac:( summer is going by fast, i need to get on my summer reading. let me think, what has happened lately. i've been to the beach a few times and i think im going to cape may with kaitlin this weekend. we arent selling my beach house anymore so i need to start going down there a lot :)
washington died. for those of you who dont know washington was my fish i won at the carnival a few years ago. he was a trooper, he could survive in a few inches of water and go for days without food, but i suppose it was just his time. it is still sad though and it took all day and a whole can of oust to get the smell of dead fish out of my room. and then my dad made fish sticks for dinner, it was horrifying. poor washington.
i got into my first car accident. it was while i was at the beach and me and kaitlin were on our way to bob evans for some breakfast. some blonde hussy hit the back of my car. she pulls over and gets out of her car with her two friends and the first thing she says to me is "OMG, I AM SO SORRY I WASNT EVEN PAYING ATTENTION, LIKE, I WAS TALKING TO MY FRIENDS!!!!"....who says that. she could have just said it was because the roads were wet or something but no, she goes on to tell me how the whole thing could have been completely avoided. i didnt like her too much.
i also ran over a bird. but i dont wanna talk about it...
other bad things that have happened to my car are as follows:
-a small child put a dent in it with a baseball... i didnt like him either.
-i hit a gas pump while trying to pull into a gas station.
-i ran over a frog.
-the fuzzy dice that amanda bought me flew out the window while i was driving down route 1 and hit a truck, then the angry truck driver (he must have thought i purposely threw them at him) yelled at me through my window.
as you can tell my car has brought me quite a bit of stress.
i saw an ice hockey game for the first time... well actually i saw the last two minutes of an ice hockey game for the first time. the other hour and 58 minutes me and kaitlin were driving around newark because we have no sense of direction.
well that seems to be all i can think of for now. i'll post pictures of beautiful cape may when i get back. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| So, i have to say that im quite happy with how my summer has been going so far. i pretty much hang out with the same people most nights but its always something new with them. a few good parties at jasons, hockey games, and I have peed in the woods more than i ever thought possible. I CAN DRIVE ON THURSDAY, AHHHHHAIKDLIWHFIWAJDWK!!!!!!!! and i convinced my mom to change my curfew to 2am, yussssssss. so many good things have happened this past week :) there's a few people im really trying to chill with that i havent seen in a while and you know who you are so call me!
hotttt....
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| | Current Music: | none | | Time: | 03:07 pm | | Current Mood: | content |
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| This weekend was absolutely ridiculous. I'm not sure if it made me and my friends closer or pushed us further apart. hard to tell with those things. for the most part i had fun.
Friday was beat.
Saturday i went to courtneys and we had a little "chat" about things then people came over to hang out. that's the night im a tad uneasy about. there was lots of things said or rather yelled, it was kind of horrible.
Sunday margaret had a bbq then me courtney margaret britney amanda and kelle all crammed into rick's car and went to a party at Tagles. this is the night that kelle hover became my hero:) we met some odd people and it was quite an experience.
If the summer is anything like this weekend was i think i'll enjoy it. its nice to have things patched up finally.
the circle of trust... HAHA!!!! | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | damien rice | | Time: | 09:49 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/flowers/shocked.gif) awake |
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| xMANDAx313: you need to update your lj
Haz3l 989: why?
xMANDAx313: the last entry was may 2nd
Haz3l 989: so
xMANDAx313: its been a while and stuff has happened
so according to amanda, "...stuff has happened".
I'm having a hard time thinking of things...
there was relay for life, that was fun. me and amanda did some hardcore walking that night... mhm. well. saturday i went to the show. hung out with amanda ruth and billy most of the night. mhm. we walked that night too. exciting.
i need to get a prom dress :/ i wish money grew on tress, life would be so much easier. ivory and gold, gah! i am going to look horrific.
i really dont have anything to say. happy amanda?
:P | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| 1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Would you do anything else to me?
13. Physically, what stands out?
14. Emotionally, what stands out?
15. Do you wish I was cooler?
16. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
17. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. .
18. Am I loveable?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you? | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| you ever smelled the rain? i guess.
Have you ever had someone from your past suddenly
appear? yes.
Have you ever felt like the whole world was right? i dont know, maybe when i was little.
Have you ever seen true beauty? thats kinda hard to answer.
Have you ever felt that someone was more beautiful
because of their flaws? yes.
Have you ever cried because you felt good? yes.
Have you ever walked along when it's cold outside and
you have a fever? no.
Have you ever wondered if the universe was sitting on
someone's fingernail? no.
Have you ever seen the sky at night when the clouds
look like flowers? eden rock:)
Have you ever had somebody care? yes?
Have you ever wanted something but then when you got
it found out it wasn't what you needed? haha yes.
Have you ever tried to make things right, only to
realize they work out if you let them be? that happens all the time.
Have you ever seen a grown man cry? yes.
Have you ever seen an amazing lightning and thunder
storm like they have in the midwest? yes at the beach with kelle and amanda, so much fun.
Have you ever needed to be held? yes.
Have you ever needed to cuddle? yes.
Have you ever made something you thought was great but
no one else liked? probably.
Have you ever made something that you thought was
terrible that everyone else loved? probably.
Have you ever been alone? yes.
Have you ever splashed in puddles? all the time.
Have you ever been really sick? yes.
Have you ever made a snowman in your front yard? absolutely!
Have you ever known what it was like to love and be
loved in return? yes.
Have you ever had a crush? yes.
Have you ever had a kiss? yes.
Have you ever known how good something was? yes.
Have you ever not know how good it was until it's
gone? haha oh yes.
Have you ever tried to write poetry but ended up
throwing it away? im not big on the poetry.
Have you ever found it later and laughed at yourself? nah.
Have you ever held the power? what?
Have you ever felt like you knew something was right? i guess?
Have you ever seen something terribly sad happen right
before your eyes? yes.
Have you ever experienced true happiness? umm...
Have you ever given a love letter? me and jesse write love letters to people all the time.
Have you ever tried to make someone feel better, just
because you saw they were down? yes.
Have you ever wanted a kiss? yupp:)
Have you ever needed a hug? everyone needs a hug at some point in time.
Have you ever wanted to just do things on impulse? hehe yes.
Have you ever wanted to paint a picture? yes.
Have you ever wanted to just run? yes.
Have you ever needed to get away? yes.
Have you ever tried? um nah.
Have you ever wanted to be a kid again? all the time:)
Have you ever blew big bubbles with pink gum? yes.
Have you ever lost a love? um.
Have you ever experienced puppy love? ??
Have you ever experienced love at first sight? nah.
Have you ever tried to tell someone something but the
words wouldn't come out? mhm.
Have you ever wanted to die? yes.
Have you ever written a letter to someone you lost
touch with? no.
Have you ever walked down a country road with your
friends? i dont think so.
Have you ever gotten ice cream on a hot day? who hasnt?
Have you ever had a really good time with your best
friends? yezzz:)
Have you ever told them how much they mean to you? mhm.
Have you ever shown them that you love them? yes.
have you ever told your parents you love them? yes.
Have you ever told someone else you love them? mhm.
Have you ever played with your old toys? haha no of course not:P
Have you ever gone back in your mind and remembered? yupp.
CURRENT
current mood: sick.
current music: none.
current clothing: jeans, t-shirt, zip-up.
current hair: up.
current food: i was eating some chex.
current drink: nada.
current taste: chex.
current smell: tommy girl.
current worry: i have like 3 tests tomorrow:/
current annoyance: my nose (i have a cold)
current hate: my nose.
current love: n/a.
current crush: if i told you i would have to kill you.
current obsession: i dont really have an obsession.
current wish: i wasnt sick anymore :(
current longing: umm...
current plans for tonite: i think im going out to dinner, maybe carnival?
current thing you should be doing: homework.
current regret: the usual.
current lyric stuck in head: "i cant take my eyes off of you."
current book: 'Tis.
current favorite book: dunno.
current TV show your watching: nada.
current favorite band: i've been listening to the blood brothers a lot.
current favorite movie: the notebook:)
current person your talking to/IM: matthew, blane, and ruth.
current avoidance: cleaning my room.
current jewlry: earrings, nose stud.
current favorite word: i dont have one.
LAST
last movie watched: the notebook... again:)
last tv show watched: i dont know prob some daytime tv like dr. phil.
last cd listened to: john mayer.
last thing eaten: chex.
last thing you drank: miiilllkkk.
last item you bought: clothttthtthezzzz:)
last store you went to: five below, amy filled out an application lets hope she gets the job.
last person talked to: papa dukes.
last thing you said: ok.
last ice cream eaten: oh man i know i had ice cream at amandas the other day but i cant remember what kind.
last soda drank: pepsi.
last person you called: matthew, or maybe jesse.
last person that called you: matthew.
last time showered: last night.
last shoes worn: reeboks.
last website visited: livejournal.com
last cry: when i got drunk at courtneys:/
FIRST
first memory: i have the worst memory.
first best friend: lisa mertz.
first boyfriend/girlfriend: bruce thorngate IV
first breakup: bruce, he kissed some bitch alexandra:(
first job: real job, hollywood grill, that shit sucked.
first self purchased item: i dont know, probably like a barbie, sike i didnt have barbies i just cant think of anything.
first funeral: never been to one.
first love: meh.
first credit card: hahahahaha credit card!
first time on a plane: when i moved here.
first time out of the country: when i visited home.
first detention: in like 5th grade i think but i dont know what it was for, but i did get yelled at for talking while in detention cause the lady was salty.
first fight: prob with my sister.
first enemy: alexandra, that boyfriend stealer!
ew... is the thing for my mood throwing up? | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| 01. I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year
02. I've been with my girlfriend for almost a year
03. I still watch cartoons.
04. I've never seen The O.C
05. I love almost all music.
06. I want a tattoo.
07. I wear glasses.
09. I want more piercings.
10. But I can't ever get any more.
11. I love to watch the rain.
12. I like to walk in the dark at night with someone special and talk.
13. I didnt believe in true love when I was younger.
14. I am a pretty cynical person sometimes.
15. Sometimes I cry for no damn reason.
16. I cry about stupid things.
17. I hate being walked all over and treated like crap.
18. It annoys me when people try to tell me how I am, and what I like.
19. I love music.
20. I am not sure if I believe in God.
21. I often feel alone.
22. I'm sometimes a loud person.
23. A girl shattered my heart into a million pieces.
24. I get depressed sometimes.
25. I hate it when people criticize me for what I like.
26. I crack my knuckles, wrists, ankles, back, etc.
27. I fidgit with anything when I'm nervous.
28. I can stay on the computer for hours.
29. I consider myself pretty unique.
30. My eyes are brown.
31. Listening to music usually helps my mood.
32. I am a disappointment to myself.
33. I love sleeping.
34. I'm obsessed with Vanilla.
35. I have a few close friends.
36. Okay, I have like 2 friends.
37. I depend on people for moral support, but usually dont get it because I'm the one they all turn to for it.
38. I like popcorn.
39. I love watching tv.
40. I like malls.
41. I like cold weather better than hot.
42. I really dig Depeche Mode.
43. I love Winter.
44. I'm addicted to AIM
45. I have trouble trusting people.
46. I do not label myself anything besides "me."
47. I love my family.
48. I love hot weather
50. I hate shaving my legs.
51. Sleeping is a hobby of mine.
52. I like to listen to music every day.
53. I love white tigers.
54. I love dancing.
55. I don't always like the way I look.
56. I used to cut myself.
57. I'm a daydreamer.
58. I like when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special.
59. I like to be with my boyfriend/girlfriend.
60. I randomly doodle on pieces of paper or myself when boredom strikes.
61. I love all my friends.
62. I'm allergic to milk.
63. I wish people would stop making me cry.
64. I hate it when people try to be what they're not.
65. I went to boarding school for the last 2 years of high school
66. I love all candy.
67. I get my feelings hurt really easy.
68. I believe inner beauty is more important than outer beauty.
69. I wear pants a lot.
70. I am often bored.
71. I like to say what's on my mind.
72. I hate blue jeans
73. I'm online a lot
74. I have 2 goldfish
75. I am for the most part happy with myself.
76. I need to meet new people.
77. I like being alone at certain times.
78. When I get angry, I curse to myself sometimes.
79. I wish I could spend more time with the ones I love.
80. I hate shallow people.
81. I'm a type 1 (insulin dependent) diabetic.
82. I ponder life way too much.
83. Sometimes I think everyone hates me.
84. I wish my brother didn't die.
85. I hate it when girls have their thongs sticking really far out of the back of their pants.
86. I need to be showed I'm loved.
87. I wish I was better.
88. I hate discrimination.
89. I hate guys who are only out for one thing.
90. I have a cute car.
91. I love glitter.
92. I sometimes wish I was more social.
93. I love my close friends.
94. I love to have fun.
95. I get amused easily.
96. I'm a lazy ass.
97. I'm usually more outgoing when I'm around friends.
98. I love to be me.
99. I love wearing hoodies
why do seagulls fly over the sea....
because if they flew over the bay, they would be called baygulls.
oh candy wrapper jokes:) | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | john mayer | | Time: | 08:47 pm | | Current Mood: | relieved |
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| Has anyone else noticed that all dunkin donuts employees are extremely nice...
Or is it just me? | | comments: 9 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 12:39 pm | | Current Mood: | cheerful |
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| last night emma took me and amy to a show in philly as a late birthday present for both of us:) taking back sunday was really good and jimmy eat world was alright. we went to emmas then took the ferry over to camden. these last few weekends were kinda beat so it was nice to have a really good night with my sisters :) i had a lot of fun. THANK YOU EMMA <333
also today is amanda's birthday.
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN AMANDA!<3 | | comments: Leave a comment |
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